One of my closest virtual friends got tired of me the other day and I understand why. I have been quite off balance for a while and done some stupid things in both real and virtual life. So Im tired of myself too and I would also leave myself if i could.
Anyho this really made me think and I realised its time i do something radical about my situation. I cant just sit here being gloomy as iv been the last 2 months. This shook me up quite a bit as this was a friend i was hoping to keep for eternity and now is lost due to my stupidity :´( I will try to make some good come out of this situation though…
I cant have this darkness in my life anymore. So i lost my bf, I just have to deal with it and some day maybee I get a new bf. Or not. Whatever. In the mean time I will try to take care of myself and my friends and NOT upset them like this again. I Will NOT put my friends through more strain due to my private mess.
A thousand flowers to you who have listened to my whining. U helped me a lot and im sorry for being such a fool. I was so off balance I coulndt think straight and I shouldnt have put that burden on you.
I may not blog that often tho, time will tell, as im still very tired. But the blog is also a way for me to ventilate a bit. (Sorry again, but at least im not forcing you to read this:)
Recently things has happened in my virtual life too as one of my colleagues who felt sorry for me (yes Im ashamed for being such a whiner irl too) and bought me Final Fantasy XIV just to put a smile on my face. (Yes he has a gf he is really in love with so he is NOT grooming me. He is tired of me being emo ofc but main reason is that he is just a lovely and caring man).
And when i started playing it yesterday i met some old blog friends who invited me to their guild so Im pampered in my virtual life too:
Belghast: Tales of the Aggronaut and Murf: Murf Versus
Maybee its good to play a totally different game with no memories attached to it for a while. It will be exciting. I have only played it for a day but so far i like it. And most important is, as usual, friends and guild. Though i will continue play ESO too as that is my all time favourite game <3
So dont feel sorry for me next time we meet and shoot me if im whining!