This summer has been depressing in many ways. I wont go in to it in detail here though, other than the main thing was that I suddenly lost contact with someone (in real life) who was very important to me… Besides this, my childrens grandmother, who i adored, died, my daughter got ill in a strange way (but is ok now) and my dog got severely ill too. Otherwise it has been raining all summer but that was fitting sort of ;(
When I was near the bottom, the end of july, 2 gaming friends appeared in my life at the same time. 1 old friend and 1 completely new. It was like someone up there was thinking “she had enough now, lets kick her butt” and sent them to me <3 Im thankful for that and that they are patient when im sulking now and then.
I try to keep myself together and with a little help it might actually work out this time too, who knows.
I believe in trying to be kind to oneself when the shit hits the fan. And I also believe we need to force ourselves to heal. Like writing this blog even tho I dont have the stamina for it. Its like therapy sort of, this blog. I dont care much if anyone reads it, i do it for myself mostly. As a diary.
So that´s why I treated myself with another game, Guild Wars 2. I dont have time for it actually but I will take it slow and I will certainly not abandon my beloved Elder Scrolls which always comes first. I just needed a new environment for a while, to potter around in. A game without sad memories attached to it.
When i see my friends hilarious character in game i can forget about my own problems for a while and actually laugh at him, and that has to be good enough (and worth the money spent. And when he tries to teach me the jumping games in GW2 (everyone knows i suck so bad at this) he says “just take one step and then take another”. Its not that easy!! D: But I will do it:)